Wednesday, February 27, 2008 @ 10:51 PM

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
Every man would have a friend
And love would never end
This is my repeated Christmas list

Good luck for papers tmr!

Monday, February 25, 2008 @ 10:09 PM

Which is the real you? The one who always fascinate ppl with her weird little thoughts or the one who crushed me with the words that night? What is everyone angry about? Why isit so awkward? Whats the problem here? Is it me? Or is there something else? Rarrrrrr

Sunday, February 24, 2008 @ 6:00 PM

Church today with J got me thinking about alot of things again. So the result of church today is this lyrics for the person who likes striking red jacket, Christmas coloured shoes and who doesn't wear a bra when he goes out and all of my friends.

So, if you're mad get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well, I'm a lot like you

When you're standin' at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'Cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
I won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when, when the night falls on you
You're feelin' all alone
And you don't know what to do
You won't be on your own

Time to study for terms! I've only did vectors and 1st chapter of econs and I'm left with the rest of the chem chaps. X_X

Thursday, February 21, 2008 @ 9:09 PM

Hurt,
like never before.

Monday, February 18, 2008 @ 9:46 PM

Thank you Rachel, Joan, Jia Yi, Tessa, Pam, Felicia, Bernice for being there during pe today.

Thank you Same Same for your tissue.

Thank you Calvin for leaving me alone.

I've never felt so scared in my life before. Brrr. So scary. But I'm well already, so I don't have to go to see D anymore. Sorry friends!

:)

Sunday, February 17, 2008 @ 12:41 AM

I just got this super meaningful christian song from Rachel. Enjoy my friends! :)

It's only for a moment you are mine to hold
The plans that heaven has for you
Will all too soon unfold
So many different prayers I'll pray
For all that you might do
But most of all I'll want to know
That you're walking in the truth
And If I never told you
I want you to know
That as I watch you grow

I pray that God would fill your heart with dreams
And that faith gives you the courage
To dare to do great things
I'm here for you whatever this life brings
So let my love give you roots
And help you find your wings

May passion be the wind
That leads you through your days
And may conviction keep you strong
Guide you on your way
May there be many moments
That make your life so sweet
Oh, but more than memories

It's not living if you don't reach for the sky
I'll have tears as you take off
But I'll cheer as you fly

Saturday, February 16, 2008 @ 8:30 PM

My mum wants to take me to the doctor. :( I hate doctorssss. I'll get myself out of this. Hahah. SO anyway, the past 2 days were funnn. Walk, play, laugh, eat, watch movie, eat, walk, play, sit. Yea thats about it. Caught 2 movies! Watched "P.S I love you" and "KungFu Dunk". Both are totally different but nice in their own way. KungFu Dunk makes me wanna get active all over again. Hahah. Go for torturous trainings and body aching all over after trainings. I miss that feeling. Watched "The Notebook" today. It was sweeet, but not as nice as I thought. Probably bcus I haven't finish it yet and I'm still waiting for the stupid video to load. ANDD I SHALL START STUDYING SOON. Going to study at bm tmr. ^^ Finally. haha.

There's soooo much things going in my mind now. Starting to get super paranoid. Omg pls, just let me be healthyyyyyyy.

AHHH I FORGOT TO WASH MY SHOES AGAIN X_X

Wednesday, February 13, 2008 @ 11:06 PM

XCOUNTRYYY TODAYY was fun fun fun!

Sat on the grass patch with the class girls today and it felt soooooooo goood just talking crap with them under the stupid sun, the very cooling breeze and the very nice songs! Feels like A lvls is far far far away. hahah. I won't mind even if we have to sit there for many many hrs. Our class should have a picnic sooon! It'll be soo fun. lol.

So the xcountry was quite slack. haha. Many guys came back before we set off. And the tchr was like, "IF YOU ALL DONT GET TO THE STARTING POINT, THERE'LL BE 2 WEEKS OF MASS PE FOR ALL OF YOU!" You all should see how fast we ran to the starting point on hearing that.

There's this inter-house cheer thing after the whole thing and dear Joleen pangseh me so I had to do it alone. Thnks Joleeen! -.- hahah. The only cheer I thought of that time was the machine gun thing and the one that Hussein told me. But in the whole TKK house, I'm the only one who knows it. haha. So i got super stressed up and like went to find the rest of the house comm. Told them about the cheer and they were ok with it. haha. So I taught them the cheeers, I repeated the cheers soo many times that it's still ringing in my head now. hahah. But the J1s were so gooooood! They were super loud and super high. haha. At first I was super scared that they wouldn't to it, but in the end they were much better than me! ^^ I cheeered sooooo loudly and I'm sooo proud of myself of cheering infront of so many ppl! hahah. So in the end TKK won the inter-house cheer for xcountry! Hahahah. I was soooo sooo soo sooooo sooooo soooo contented and HAPPPPY! ^^ ^^

Dinner with Budi postponed, so I went to town with HuiTing to look for present after xcountry, we took suchhhhh a long time deciding how to get there. haha. Borrowed money from the class fund to buy tickets for tmr. hahahah. So went to get the tickets first thn went to walk around town to look for the present. Walked around town for sooooo long thn finally settled on buying C____ and H_____. Hahah tmr thn can say. Left town at like 8plus cus HuiTing had to reach home by 9. tsktsk. Poor thing.

Just got home not long ago. Went to meet Jesica and Christina for dinner after that. We were talking so much and I almost forgot to pay for my food and walked off. hahah. Ohhh and I open my letterbox and found another CD that BingChia burned for me! Cus the one he burned ytd was dvd and my comp can't read dvd. hahah. Thanks againnn!

And its Vday alr! hahah. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY PPL! Sooo excited for vday tmr! But dread vday in sch tmr. haha. Had so much fun these few days! Hahaha. BUT...THERE'S CSC TEST ON FRI. I needa start looking for my book alr. hahah. Ok I'm so tired now. GOOOODNITE PEOPLE! ^^

Tuesday, February 12, 2008 @ 6:15 PM

School was soo much fun todayy! hahaha. Im so tired now from excessive laughing. haha.

So I started my day with asking Jeco for Hussein's number today bcus he was the TKK house captain last year so Mdm asked me to ask him for some cheers for xcountry tmr. Soo Jeco gave me his number and I happily went to sms him.

Me: Hello this is Yixuan from tkk hse comm. Do you still rmb any tkk cheers? Its quite urgent cus xcountry's tmr. Thanks!

Him: hahah. You're frm barker isit?

Me: Nope I'm from acjc. haha.

Him: Oh! haha. sorry sorry. We've never had any cheers actually! the usuall kemat kemat and northsoutheast west one

Me: Oh. haha. So tmr xcountry just do that 2 cheers can alr?

Him: Its xcountry so the cheers will only come whn the runners run past right? lol. Who told you i was TKK capt!

Me: Oh the tchr-in-charge told me to look for you and Jotham

Him: Huh. How would acjc teacher know me! Im Harresh!

Hahaha. Turns out that Mandeep gave Harresh's number to Jeco instead of Hussein's and like Harresh was the hse capt of TKK in Barker. Lol! I almost died laughing. hahahah. It was super embarassing.

During Chem lecture, I kinda threw my file on the floor and it was sooo loud that the row infront of us all shook at the same instant and all of them looked back at the same time. Hahaha. It was sooooo funny when all of them like jerked at the same time. Haha. I laughed till I had stomachache and still couldn't stop. hahah. Sorry people!

Andd after schooool, Eugene and Calvin were helping me think of cheers and I swear they came out with the most retarded cheers ever. Hahah! But they were soooooooooo funny I laughed till my throat felt so dry and tired I dont know why. hahah. They were like replacing the Fergalicious lyrics with Tkkalicious. haha. And one was like "TKK ARE YOUU RDYY!!" thn they'll be like "TKKTKKKTKKKTKK!" (rifle shooting sound) with funny actions. hahah. And many other funny ones! In the end there was this usable one but I refused to use that cus it was too embarrasing. hahah. Anw, Thnks for helping guys!

After that went to HollandV with Joan, Tessa, Samuel. It was soo funny cus everyone was against Samuel and he had to like fight back the whole time. hahah. Went back to school to wait for BingChia and Clarence to come to sch cus BingChia wanted to pass me a cd.

Ytd on the phone, he insisted that my hp has too many emooo songs and I shldn't listen to them anymore so he wants to burn a cd of nice songs for me sometime soon. And I thought he was just joking! BUT, today, he smsed me and said that he wants to pass me the cd! Hahah. I was super shocked, it was superrr nice of him! haha. Thanks soo muchhh! ^^

So I smuggled them into ACJC to the back gate and noone noticed at all. -.- Sch's security very bad. hahah. Ohh and like BingChia got SUNBURNT bcus he went to GENTING for the wkend. Super dumb.

On the bus, I told them I don't like brownies cus they're black and it looks weird and they said I'm a racist. So I was like "Ohh I got a super racist joke to tell you all!" Thn when I turned to my left I realised there's this indian lady standing right beside me. I bet she heard me. X_X

Hahah. Laughed till my cheeks feeling tired alr. And its going to be an excitingg weeek!

Wed: Xcountry, dinner with Budi and friends! (Gooooood foood day!)

Thurs: VDAYYY!!! hahah. DOUBLE DATEE! With the funniest ppl! lol (P.S I love you here I come!) anddd tuition? hahah

Fri: CSC TEST! X_X . Night out with my lovess(27 DRESSSES!) , FINALLLY!

Wkend: Tuition plus ANOTHER FAMILY DAY? ^^

AND I REALLY NEEDA START STUDYING SOOON. X_X Dieeee. And to all my friends who tagged. Ppl who read my blog will think I'm like reallyyyy depressed when they see the tags. hahah. But really thanksss soo muchhh! hahah.

Life's getting better all the time, but I still wish that you were here to share all my joy and laughter. And if you're reading this, I really hope you can feel my joy too. ^^

Monday, February 11, 2008 @ 9:44 PM

It's all in the way you look through your eyes
And when all is said and done
All of the fears and all of the lies
Are not hard to overcome
It's all in the way you look at it that makes you strong

We are two very different people
So much to overcome
So why care for one another when there's so much to be done
Cause sometimes it's necessary
Just look how far we've come
You could say my friend that it's the end
Or a new tale has begun

And one moment in the time
Is all the time we need
Just to make a difference
To make it better for you and for me
If you just believe

One very special moment
Can turn a destiny
And what some would say could never change
Will change for you and me

@ 12:06 AM

Blog blog blog! I shall blog before I sleeeep. Today is family day. I lovee lovee family day! Had so much fun today at home with my family and my uncle and auntie. hahah. Woke up quite early today cus I had something on my mind. So i went to write an emaill to get it off my mind thn went back to sleeeep! But my mom woke me up like awhile later cus my uncle&auntie were here. Then my mom and my auntie started cooking and everything, everything smells sooo good but the product is some weird tasting chicken chop which nobody wanted to eat. hahah. After eating, went back to sleep, again. hahah. Everyone was napping bcus of the stupid hot weather. Everyone woke up at like 5 cus my mom was talking so loudly she woke everybody up.

Thennn all of us start to clean the house. hahah. Spring cleaning after chinese new yr. My auntie opened my wardrobe and she couldnt believe what she saw so she decided to help me pack my wardrobe! With my help of cus. hahah. Now my wardrobe is superrrrrrrrrrr neat and tidy ^^ ANDDDD I found this special edition white ACJC collegiate in my wardrobe!!! HAHA. I didn't even know I have it bcus its like hidden under the mountain of clothings and I was still like trying find out if I can get it this year. Omgomg. haha. I was soooo happy my aunt thought I was crazy. haha. That brightened up my day a little. ^^

After the very tiring packing, we decided to play mahjongggg on my dining table. But we have no mahjong paper so we put bedsheet on the dining table. hahah. It was quite funny. Its the first time I play mahjong in my own house. Andd I won! ^^ My bro is a super big noob, haha, he made the game so much more funny. Played till dinner time and dinner was gooood. haha. Chilli crab! Superrr nice.

Chatted online for awhile thn finally decided to start studying at 10.30pm. hahah. Abit late. But I didn't really study too cus Victoria's Secret fashion show was superrr distracting. The girls were superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr hot. X_X hahah. Erwin the big pervert was saying the cameras could lower when they're shooting. HHAHA! Now everyone knows about it! So I've decided to stop studying at 12am cus I dont have my vectors tutorial with me bcussss I didn't go to sch on Mon and I forgot to get my tutorial back from Rachel anddd I couldn't get anything inside my head anymore. I am going to dieeee tmr.

And past few days were alot of funnn and mahjong. hahah. I'll blog about it if I rmb. OKAYYYYYY sleeeeeping time now. Chapel plus mass pe plus math test tmr. AND OMG I JUS REALISE I HAVENT DO CHEM WKEND ASSIGNMENT. -.- I think I had abit too much fun. Okay im so tired alr. NITES!

Saturday, February 09, 2008 @ 11:34 AM

I'm so tired

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Wednesday, February 06, 2008 @ 12:24 PM

Nowadays, whenever I see you

There's this anger, disappointment, guilt, empathy, unbelievable, supressed feelings I feel inside me

Thats probably whats keeping me from starting a conversation with you

I guess I need to calm down first. hahaha.

But other than that, I'm pretty happy now. I really hope you're happier too. ^^

Wendy,Christina,Jesica: Ok you 3 stop flooding my tagboard alr. hahah. Make me sound so weak. I'm back now! I can feel your love alr, totally. haha. Shorter tags next time ok. ^^

Monday, February 04, 2008 @ 6:55 PM

Didn't go to school today because of this annoying headache which makes me feel like vomitting whenever I got out of bed. Made me lost my appetite today as well. Ate like 1 sandwich and 1 cupcorn since I woke up. Was feeling sooo bored at home till Wendy decided to come over to visit me! hahah. And she got me cupcorn! Hahah. Had a greaaaaaaat time with her, just 2 of us lying on the bed, talking about anything and everything, commenting on pictures from my yearbook, eating my cupcorn. hahah. I really want to tell her how happy I am to have her in my life. ^^

Talked for 4hrs straight, I told her I need to cry because there's something in my mind that I need to let go of but I'm so tired tears just won't come out. So she told me to read some letters, look at some things, cryy and move on. After I read theletters, I didn't feel like crying at all. All the letters just amazed me about how feelings, love, promises can change within weeks, or even days. And how and the good times together, all the promises to get through everything together, and the strength we used to get from each other can be forgotten and gotten over so easily. There were really times when I thought it could be forever for the first time. But, life's so cruel :(

Okayyyy so after reading all the letters, kept everything in my cupboard thn I took out my yearbook and we had a good laugh at my class photo (me). hahah. I'll really study very hard so that I'll be so rich in the future that I can buy back all the yearbooks and destroyyyy them. hahah. Really had a great time with Wendy. hahah. Christina and Jesica should be here too. I miss themmmm :(

Its back to school tmr! ^^ KahHwee and Wendy says I have split personality. hahah. Cus I'm like a total different person at different time and it scares them. But its just bcus school makes me happy. hahah. I think i need to start studying soon. Im still at alkenes and I havent do my econs! Omg its 7.40pm alr! haha.

Before studying, I just wanna say.

I<3Wendy. I<3Christina. I<3Jesica. I<3Rachel. I<3Joan. I<3KahHwee. I<3YiLing. I<3Alicia. I<3Monster. I<3Tessa. I<3Felicia. I<3HuiTing. I<3Justine. I<3Pam. I<3Jeremy. I<3Calvin. I<3Irvin. I<3Eugene. I<3WeiTing. I<3Samuel. I<3S. I<3Jeco. I<3Joshua. I<3BingChia. I<3KaiSheng. I<3Ronald. I<3ShiChi. I<3Ashley. I<3G.

for all the little things they do for me and I've yet to have the chance to thank them. ^^ I have soooo much love inside for them! hahah. OK really gotta study alr. Brrrr. I hate Chem. Have fun studying everyone!

Feelings didn't fade
It was just deliberately pushed away
because of exhaustion, anger and disappointment.
Then, slowly, love is forgotten

Maybe there'll come a time when you finally have the courage and strength
To look inside your heart again,
You might just find all the feelings you've buried deep down inside
Like nothing has ever changed
And you'll find yourself loving, blessed
and be truly happy, once again
like how you used to feel

hurr yi xuan
260890
hps gesps gess acjc nus biz

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